Wind blown and frayed
My heart is dismayed
After years waiting for flight
My Heart is the kite
The kite string so tangled
In the wind my heart dangles
Just knotted and stuck
All my goals run a muck
Dangles, flaps, spins and twists
I'm made for the air and know what I miss
The glory of freedom to sail high above
But this kite does not fly on the wings of true love
Isolated instead I grow winsome and dusty
Where my supports once were supple
They're now growing crusty
I've grown brittle, and fickle, my heart is forelorn
In all of my waiting my heart fills with scorn
Though made for the air, I fail to see
how my lovelorn lament changes who I can be
Without knowing or trying I push others away
So wrapped up in hurt and a sense of dismay
All kites need a runner to take to the air
But to run this old kite none would dare
It's knotted, tangled, brittle and old
This kite won't catch air, but it's never told
So wondering, "Why?" & "How?" and mostly just, "When?"
This measly kite looks for love again
It's dowels are cracked, bent, & showing general wear
It's silk is sun scorched and starting to tear
It once was so supple with colors so bold
Now it's a mess looking tattered and old
So long has it waited for enough of a wind
That it could not see how these choices would end
In a crumpled heap of kite dismay
Too tangled to flap in the wind any day